I was cleaning my flat while listening to nostalgie and i noticed that i missed french goldies... So today, no, no long post, just a nice old song of the day:
and one more for the fun:
oh and now that i am youtubing in old french singing music, here you get some more:
GOOD NIGHT!
and it was a good thing. Noes are good things sometimes. My hairdresser said no to my question: "can you cut my hair short?". She said it would be better to have it long and that we would fix a nice color for this time. And the color went like that:
what do you think?
I am right now watching "boss undercover" which is about big bosses in big companies getting "down" in the hierarchy and working without that the others know who is this person. I think every boss in big companies should do this. Me the first when it will be my turn.
The song of the day, is from a belgian singer that has the same hair color than i do now:
ok. I am not traeting my running program well. wait, which training program? the one consisting of buying runners magazine and waiting lazy that the weather will be warmer and lighter? ah ok. So i put my energy in good food for the moment, Vitamins and no sugar, fett or pizza. Miam! I will also be restrictiv with alcohol. So!
Song of the day:
Oh you my friends, i don't want you to be jealous but once again, it was a mervellous week end for me on planet earth. And this week end began on thursday evening, which was a good thing. I got kind of destroid at work, you know this 10% of all your relations destroying for the 90% others... well, the travell down to Småland and the hugs from M helped me to relax.
After a nice breakfast downtown on friday morning, M went to work and i went shopping, as a good housewife has to do. I bought food, alcohol and Mojo. At home, it was a carrousel of vinyl records while sipping tea and going from one couche to another with a book or Mojo. Nice sunny day, but a waaaaay too cold for my little french me.
This picture was is from Mojo:
Nice to notice that Blondinbella has her copy in the artistic world, but somehow, it sounds so wrong.
In the same number of Mojo, it was also this picture:
Also: focus. Two of my favo musicians evaaaar (Damon Albarn and Flea) making a record with another apparently splendid artist and this will go out exactly 2 days before my bday?!?! You may now know what i am preparing my self: porn for my ears for the beginning of my life with an age beginning with 3!
The rest of the week end was social, cold (outside, poor trees with their ice-skirts) and this morning, i did somehting i haven't done in ages: i took a bath. Lovely!
The song of the day, i hope, will give you some energy to begin this new week, which is for me the serious beginning of the end. But nice :)
and this one:
I want winter, cold winter and sunny days on a snowy landscape. I want to make a snowangel. I want to skii, just to feel how it hurts my legs and how i need to go inside and drink a warm chocolate.
Song of the day:
M came and visited me this week end in Linköping. We went to the cinema and watched "Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy" and it was actually not at all what i imagined. I won't tell more for the people that want to see it.
picture borrowed here
I also finished to read the book "Vips så blev det liv" which contents a lot of humour. It was not very intellectual litterature but it was funny, meaning enough for me in these times when i don't have that much energy when i go to bed (place where i read 95% of the time).
I also had a reflexion in my head when i came back from the trainstation when M left to Småland. Life is composed of work, friends, relationships, family, hobbies, health, place to live mostly. The past years, i felt like most of the things were ok, except the boifriend part. I tried to convinced myself that it was not my fault (like Elisabeth Gilbert does when it goes about creativity) but somehow, i got some help last summer with that and i am really happy, when i let my ghosts in the cave. So, work is going to change for some better soon, i feel more available for my friends with phonecalls and some week ends planned in februari and mars, same for my family with which i feel i am more able to have good talks since i am less concerned about my own problems, i am enjoying squash, reading, watching movies, making things most f the time, so hobby: check. Place to live: ah well, it is ok as long as i have some discipline. But here you are: health. I should work on it and take my runs as planned but it is going slowly. I took a run last thrusday and a reaction to that is now a hurting throat.
SOOOO
I need to feel better. My plan is to make a mini detox cure in order to loose these christmas kilograms on my ass and then, when my throat will feel better (it has been so since one month or so), i should be able to make it.
No need to say that the snow that felt today and the minus degrees do not really help to motivate myself for some run. But so it will be! yeah!
And trust. I am on the edge sometimes to trust people around me and i need to focus on this: now that my life is back on track, i need to be nice to people around me and trust them. What could happen: to be dissapointed? ah well, not my loss - hum, well yes but ok then-
The song of the day is one singer that staid on the "favvo list" on swedish radio during the whole year 2011:
I am sitting i m y living room for the first time since 10 days. Incredible. I don't need all this space it seems!
Ok, so i've done a thing for the third time in my life: i quit my job. This was a short visit this time, 8 months. It was not planned to be that short but sometimes, you have to follow your feelings. The colleagues were very nice and the job itself ok, but i learnt that i need some things to feel confortable at work. You know, maybe a banality, but you spend so much time at work that it has to feel right and i am from this kind of blessed people that writes 2 letters and gets the 2 jobs so i thought i had to find a better place for me to stay.
The most difficult part in this was surely to say no to a very good offer (the other one was even better of course). I realized that there are few times in life when you are get to make a so beautiful choice. So that's why i was writing everywhere and at anytime recently that i am blessed. Because i am. Plus that i am very thankful of all the chances that are given to me too.
Well. Another done for tomorrow: i will take a run with some colleagues. Hum, i am not really sure on how the chocolate i am eating now while watching Ozbourne singing as a 20-years old guy will help me tomorrow... I feel that i need to begin again to run, september is coming soon. But for my defense, i have had a cold and i am feeling really better since only a couple of days.
Song of the day:
That's the number of days that are left until Stockholms halfmarathon. This is my challenge for 2012 and I feel likei've not been very activ in training for that. Ok, i had a flue until these days, so it was not the best conditions for training. I've plaid squash though, but not a good idea to go and take a run.
The weather is much more nicer than it was last year at the same time though. At this time of the year, i had a little more than one month left to train but i was being really serious. I plaid floorball once a week, trained intervall with a club and took often a long run during the week ends. I remember too that my week ends were very lonely and partyfree last winter. I mostly went out for my run on saturday morning and was not driking alcool that much.
One year ago, i only had sent some letters for new jobs, it was all a new process for me. Ages since the last interview for a job.
But back to our sheeps: 21,1 km through Stockholm.
It seems that the toughest part (for me after km16) will be on Södermalm. It is written that it is easy to make a good time for this halfmara. Since i ran myfirst halfmara in 2h08min och my second in 1h57min, i would like to have 1h45min as a goal for this third one. Hum, kanske 1h50min would be more reasonable. Well, i really need to find my running shoes back!
For now, i should sleep now, but same as yesterday, i am just turning myself around in my bed. Note to self: last night before a working day when i will be watching a movie from my bed, with my laptop on my stomach.
Song of the day: (the one i got in the ears when i was attacking the 17th km in Paris, when it was going up strong and i was thinking i was crazy to take part in this!)
Oh this is becoming a 2i am so happy and i shout it out to the whole world" blogg, this is almost pathetic. But here it is: friday the 13th was a good one for me, even if it led to a lots of thoughts. I cannot tell much more about it (go and make your bet) but things are turning out very well.
I think i never felt that peaceful in my whole life before. Even if i am a lucky one in the long way, i never felt that much loved, listened to, encouraged, trusted and so on and so on. I told you, it is going to be pathetical. Pathos. Look what wikipedia says about it:
Pathos ( /ˈpeɪθɵs/; plural: patha or pathea; Greek: πάθος, for "suffering" or "experience;" adjectival form: 'pathetic' from παθητικός) represents an appeal to the audience's emotions. Pathos is a communication technique used most often in rhetoric (where it is considered one of the three modes of persuasion, alongside ethos and logos), and in literature, film and other narrative art.
Emotional appeal can be accomplished in a multitude of ways:
i am definitively not a good writer, making metaphors everywhere and so, but you may be sure that i feel some passion. I am not sure you feel something more than "bleh" when you read, but i tell you, if this luck&love feeling should stop, even if i would be deeply sad, i would also be very thankful to have had the priviledge to meet it.
/ Pathos
This week end was spent in Ljungby, began with a nice evening in restaurant and bar and a slow but nice saturday with chats, needed shopping and Sherlock Holmes. Lucky me that wasn't alone to watch it. i got scared! Today was a looooong sleeping morning, and when i woke up around 8, i just told myself how stupid i was to wake up now and i went quick back to my sweet dreams. After that, it was a nice time at M's parents place and then time for me to take the train and travel back to Linköping. The winter is in the air, quite fresh and some snow is falling, a little shy.
i wanted to look just some minutes on the internet before to go to bed, but i failed. it's now 23.34, my alarm will ring in 6 hours and i will think "why L, oh why?". And i am now thinking of the fact that i don't have any bread for my breakfast tomorrow morning. Huh?!? Ah well, here you got your good night song: